The 10-month dilemna

They warn you about how hard newborns are and you get everyone's sympathy about how terrible you look, how tired you are, and how you have food in your hair and mushed into your shirt until your baby is about 6 months old.  Then people expect that the baby and you have gotten your shit all figured out.  At least that is the way it feels and thus why I feel so much desperation as my beautiful bouncing inquisitive stubborn 10-month makes me feel each day like a less and less competent mother.  I really think it all stems to the sleep deprivation, one cannot do anything properly after 10 MONTHS of no-sleep.  You think I exxaggerate?  I don't.  When she was a baby, we thought 2-3 times a night was a lot.  NOW, the standard is 4 times a night.  I really wish I was kidding.  That whole 10-month regression thing plus the fact that she never slept well is really killing us.  It's really starting to mess me up physically, mentally, and emotionally.  I feel like I can't get anything done anymore because I am too exhausted to kick into gear in the precious moments I have to get stuff done.  My exhausted state makes it very easy to make unhealthy eating decisions and makes it hard to have the motivation to get out and exercise.  I feel like I look like a Zombie, I probably am shorter tempered with DH.  Pretty much I thought things would get easier as she got older but I find it much much harder.  Probably because on top of it all, she's like a week or 2 from walking but all she wants to do is be walked around over and over.  And if you carry her, she's not a light baby anymore.  Boy, do I sound like a whiner? I'm just SO tired and getting SO depressed.  And start medical school in 5 weeks so something has to change asap....or I might really start enjoying those nights away from home a little too much. :(